I’ve been mad at God lately. Really mad. Madder than I’ve been in a long time.
It wasn’t about any thing He did to me, but more about what He did to the whole human race. For starters, He put us here, on earth, and gave us a life of struggle. Oh, I know, you may think you have it good now, (I know I do), but throughout the history of man-kind, for all of human existence, we’ve had to struggle to make ends meet. Actually, a lot of people are still struggling. And struggling makes you mean, and angry, and do hurtful things to other people.
Which brings me to the book I read recently. The thing that set this whole thing off.
I read 12 Years a Slave. And then I watched the movie. And the whole thing made me mad. Madder than I’ve been in a long time. I don’t like being mad.
I was mad that some people could be so cruel – and that other people (like the slaves and other white people) would let them. It made me mad, and hurt, and angry to see how men, (and women) were so inhuman to other men and women.
But I got over it – mostly. It takes too much effort to hold a grudge, especially against God. The anger hurt me more than it hurt anyone else, and holding anger causes it to spread out to hurt others, and then I risk becoming the thing that made me mad and angry in the first place.
So I stopped. I let go. I breathed and reminded myself – repeatedly – that the only person I can change is me. And IF I am loving, and forgiving, and able to let go of pain, then maybe that love and goodwill will spread. And there will be less anger in the world. At least there will be less anger in the world that I know.
I stopped, and I let go, and then, taking a giant leap of faith, I trust in the all loving goodness of God, and life and my fellow man.
Enjoy always, T
I recently finished reading The Mastery Of Love by Don Miguel Ruiz, a practical guide to the art of relationship. I’m not really sure I would call it a practical guide to the art of relationship, but that’s what the book says. I found it to be like a two and a half hour movie that could have been shown in 30 minutes. There was a lot of repetition of the core concepts, over and over. That’s not to say it isn’t filled with nuggets of deep truth and helpful insights. It is. And I would recommend the book to anyone interested in the art of loving the world and yourself, as you are.
It seems to me that one of the core messages, if not the core message was: If you don’t like a person, or a group of people , you can walk away from that person or persons. But if you don’t like yourself, it doesn’t matter where you go, you are right there. – - – Yeap, I’d have to agree.
And I really liked this one: Everyone has a price, and Life respects that price. But that price is not measured in dollars or in gold; it is measured in love. More than that, it is measured in self-love. How much you love yourself–that is your price–and life respects the price. When you love yourself, your price is very high, which means your tolerance fro self-abuse is very low. . . If you don’t like things about yourself, your price is a little lower. – - – I’d like to think my price is very high. I’m pretty pleased with me. No brag, just fact.
He also says things like, don’t believe everything you hear or read and don’t believe everything you think. Believe what feels good and right and makes you truly happy. I’m good with that too.
Writing romance stories makes me feel happy — so I write romance stories — and I am happy. Of course, I hope my stories will entertain and make other people happy, but that’s really not my concern. As selfish as this may seem, I’m not here to make the world happy, I’m here to be happy with the world. Thankfully, more often than not, I am very happy with my life in this world. And I hope you are too.
Love and blessing to you. May you enjoy always, T
Six years ago when I started writing, I was inspired to write the book I wanted to read. Something different that included the romance of time-travel and the metaphysical theme of reincarnation. So I sat down and wrote Return In Time. It was an appropriate title as I believe we all return in time through our various lifetimes on this earth. We’ve been here before and it only makes sense that we’ll be here again someday, in another life.
I left a big question unanswered in that first book: What happened to Rory after Teressa left and returned to her own time? So I wrote a second book to answer that question and I gave Teressa’s brother, Daniel, a chance to make a choice and to experience his ability to shape his life. Daniel’s story is called Somewhere To Belong. That’s something we all want to have – a place to belong.
Then, because I like things to come in groups of three, I wrote Away Over Yonder. I wanted to bring the story full circle – back to the present with a strong focus on the need to forgive – really on the benefits of forgiveness. It’s about how we can carry our hurts from past lives with us into lives after lives, until we truly forgive.
I started out writing for myself and it became something I wanted to share with others. I wrote these stories because they called to me, they made sense to me and because I enjoyed them. I published them so others could also enjoy them. I don’t expect everyone to like my books, maybe only a few, but I support every writer who wants to tell their story. I think it’s in our nature to want to tell stories, and our desire to learn from the stories of others. Stories are the greatest learning device for how to live our life and better understand the world around us. From the emotions they provoke we learn to pick and choose what feels right for us and hopefully we learn how to better understand our fellow human beings. And through our stories, we expand our awareness of others and ourselves.
Through stories we can experience a world that is bigger than ourselves and truly, as they say, be carried away.
May you be carried away by a good story – - – and Enjoy Always. T
Thanksgiving may have come and gone, but I am still in the mood to be thankful.
One of the Biggest things I am thankful for – besides all the usual personal stuff like family, health and well-being – is that we, as a community of people here on this Earth, take time to honor Thanksgiving. It may be celebrated on different days and in different ways in other countries, but there’s this global ideal of giving thanks.
It warms my heart and soul to think how we actually set aside a day to gather together in gratitude and GIVE THANKS. We open our hearts and homes to share in acknowledging our blessings, and often to share with others who have less.
What am I grateful for? I am grateful for Thanksgiving.
And then, as if that’s not enough, we follow up Thanksgiving with a whole season of giving and receiving. The very act of giving and receiving is a blessing to both the giver and the receiver. So let’s celebrate December and the holiday season, filled with lights and joy and good will toward our fellow man and woman.